Broken Bones

assalamu'alaikum~~ asma` & xati.. it's been awhile since I could post anything here. Ada la several attempts, but ended up doing something else. I've even finished my pediatrics posting pun! :p sorry~ my bad..

the thing is.. lots of things happened and I didn't know how to cramp all those in just a page (alasan).

Can I start all over again? I mean I've lost the momentum obviously so I definitely need some time to reprogram everything in my head.. or my soul? astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah. macam dah berkarat je. huhu.

okie dokie tomorrow is the beginning of my new posting - ORTHOPEDICS weeeee! (urm, honestly I'm not into bones sgt, but still.. ilmu kan..)

right now I'm flipping through Dr Imran's note on Orthopedics.. reviews said it's pretty good so I thought I'd give it a try. Just pray that my brains can accommodate all of the important infos and not drained anywhere else.

semoga sihat2 semuanya ya~ Allahu yusallimukum inshaAllah..

HARRY POTTER!

So, the last movie of harry potter was out a couple of days ago- the first part. And with that, my obsession to harry potter which has been dormant for quite some time has resurfaced. (Truth be told, I am ashamed of myself to still have this obsession.hehe. 23! I'm 23!oh well..)

WHY does this movie has to come out during the time of my exams. Couldn't you just wait until my exams are over! erghh. Nevertheless, I am uber excited to watch it!

I am currently doing a rerun of all harry potter movies from 1 until 6 before watching the 7th. I have just finished with the prisoner of azkaban and I will do the next three after the exams! Hopefully I will be able to restrain myself. :P

I have a lot of harry potter moments with the both of you especially xati. hehe. Fun times that was. I still remember the first time I read harry potter- it was the second book which my father got me when he got back from work in the UK (I was 12 I think). The cover was not very enticing but my father kept saying that it was very popular in the UK. So i gave it a try and was definitely hooked! I'm super glad that I gave it a try. :)

Random bits about me and Harry Potter:

• My favourite book is always the third. Harry potter and the prisoner of Azakaban. Very interesting, mind-blowing plot :)
• My favourite characters are Ron and Hermione. They are just so funny and what a cute couple those two. Love every moments of them in all the books.
• and I think I'm a Gryffindor. :P (perluke ni?x kot.hiks)

OK.on a different note, one of my friend was NOT into Harry Potter (I was a bit taken aback and asked her why) because she thinks that it was very tahyul. hehehe. Well2, I believe I have to agree with her on that. It does kind of take you to a different world- a fantasy world which could distract you from this real world. But this happens with all fictions out there. They bring you to the world of imagination. It may be a distraction but so long as you learn something from what you read/watch, its all good I think. eheh.

Enough about Harry Potter, I need to get back to my studying.

Have a lovely day all of you. :)

ps: I might want to do a book review in this blog, basically just to get me back on my reading again. uhuh. Once every 2months- even this is a bit too ambitious. Nevertheless, I want to give it a try. Oh yeah, if there are any good books you guys know, do suggest it to me. I'll give it a go and do a review after, iA :)

pss: xati, plz update anything about you. I have no idea what's going on with you and this is not good. and leyya, May you be pain free always. take care girls.! much love from me!

Updates

I've deactivated my facebook due to exams- which will be on thursday and friday next week. On Neuro, Psych, Ortho and Rheumatology.

Please make doa everyone. thank you.

Its been AGES since I last talk to both of you. :(

Why is it that you can be so sure of something one moment and suddenly find yourself in doubt the next..? I truly dislike this feeling. (merepek di blog cos da takda facebook.)

I Wanna Be...

PAIN FREE.

Knowledge is Power.

Today I feel like writing about something basic. Very basic. ILMU.

Apa ada pada ilmu? Hmm..

Rasulullah saw bersabda yang bermaksud:

"Sesiapa yang berkehendakkan dunia, maka hendaklah ia berilmu. Sesiapa yang berkehendakkan akhirat, maka hendaklah ia berilmu dan sesiapa yang berkehendakkan kedua-duanya maka hendaklah ia berilmu." (hadis riwayat at-Tirmidzi)

Ini menunjukkan betapa pentingnya ilmu dalam kehidupan kita. Kalau nak apa-apa, mesti ada ilmu. Apa saja yang mampu kita lakukan tanpa ilmu? Sesungguhnya, kita ni sangatlah memerlukan kepada ilmu. Tetapi ilmu yang bagaimanakah? Selalu kalau baca ma'thurat ada kita berdoa kepada Allah supaya kurniakanlah kepada kita ilmu yang bermanfaat. Apakah ilmu yang bermanfaat ini? Sesungguhnya banyak saja ilmu yang bermanfaat di dunia ini, tetapi ilmu yang paling paling paling bermanfaat tidak lain tidak bukan adalah ilmu Islam. Apa itu ilmu Islam? Itulah ilmu Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah.

Sesungguhnya Nabi saw ada bersabda yang bermaksud:

"Sesiapa yang Allah kehendakkan kebaikan kepadanya, Allah akan berikan kepadanya kefahaman agama."

(Bukhari dan Muslim)

Kalau tiada ilmu agama...

• bagaimana mampu kita melakukan ibadah dengan betul?
• bagaimana mampu kita teguhkan aqidah kita?
• bagaimana mahu mebezakan yang haq dan batil?
• bagaimana mahu menjalankan kehidupan dengan betul?
• bagaimana kita hendak menyampaikan kepada yang lain?

Banyak persoalan yang takkan mampu kita jawab tanpa adanya ilmu. Kita sebagai seorang muslim harus merujuk kepada al-Quran dan as-Sunnah dalam setiap perkara yang kita lakukan so kalau kita sendiri x faham keduanya- maka bagaimana? Tanpa ilmu, kita hanya akan bersangka-sangka sahaja yang kita nih buat perkara yang betul which might not be the case.

huuuu. Entry ni sebenarnya adalah refleksi diri- diri ini yang kurang serius dalam mendalami ilmu agama sedangkan itu adalah ilmu yang amat crucial untuk kita ada. Kalau ada usrah atau ada talk mengenai islam, barulah nak tambah ilmu agama. Sebenarnya itu sahaja tidak cukup. Kita kene actively seek for the knowledge. At least everyday kena spend time untuk ilmu agama. Bacalah. Dengarlah ceramah agama. Kena sentiasa tambah ilmu. Cintakan ilmu!

Ilmu islam ini sangatlah luas, rasanya kalau belajar sepanjang kehidupan pun, belum tentu boleh habis belajar. Tapi at least, harus start learning secara serious. Iye. Harus!

Ok. Mari sama2 menambahkan ilmu.

Entry sebelum bermula mencari ilmu. Tapi kali ini ilmu medic pula :)

ilmu yang ini pun penting juga. hehe.

10 interesting facts about colorado.

salam wbt.

wah, sudah bersawang nampaknya blog ini. lama sungguh tak ada orang meng-update. apparently, pengupdate tegar (leyya, thats you) pun sudah lama tidak menjalankan tugasnya. heeee. sebab bulan ramadhan mungkin. semua mesti sedang sibuk mengejar pahala lagi-lagi dah masuk 10 hari terakhir ni. :) bagoslah korang!!

As for me, tak tahu la kenapa tiba-tiba datang mood nak menulis pula. (i think this is me avoiding real work :P ) Well, actually my sister- Kautsar- has been asking me to write about her in my blog ages ago.heheh.yeah, she's self-centred like that sometimes. *kidding* Since good things has happened to her in the past few weeks, i think i'll share that here.

First, I would like to publicly congratulate you on your A-levels results! heee, haven't done that have I?

CONGRATULATIONS KAUTSAR ZAMANURI ON YOUR AWESOME RESULT! and dah fly pun ke Colorado.heheh. (well, better late than never aite)

Another sibling off to another continent of the world. More chance for me to go jalan-jalan.oooh, nak pergi New York. !!(sila bawa yeh nanti kautsar) hee. Alhamdulillah, murah rezeki, dapat result best and dapat fly ke US. ok,habis crite. :P heheh.

Actually tak ada la nak cerita how smart and beautiful you are kat sini kan kautsar, hehe, but I have something to share with you which IS.....

10 interesting facts about colorado!! (taken from 50states.com)

1. The united states Air Force Academy is located in colorado springs.

2. Colorado means "coloured red" (i refuse to spell colour w/out "u" cos I'm in UK and all).hee.

3. Denver, lays claim to the invention of the cheeseburger. (whatt??!) The trademark for the name of cheeseburger was awarded in 1935 to Louis Ballast.

4. The tallest building in Colorado is the Republic Piaza at 57 stories high, in Denver. (go check it out, tapi 57 je?hihi)

5. Every year Denver host the worlds largest rodeo, the western stock show. (hohoh, famous dengan rodeo rupanya. Yang ni tak payah check out la.hee.scary!)

6. The world's largest natural hot springs pool located in Glenwood Springs.

7. the Colorado School of Mines is there!

8. Kautsar and Sherene is there!

9. ok, who else is there? because I cant find anything interesting anymore.10 is too ambitious i guess.heee.kalau NYC tak apa la jugak kan. :P

10. .......

ok, I am not entirely sure whether all of the above is true or not. I hope they are, if not, please blame the website.hehe. Kalau betul, bertambahla knowledge kita about Colorado, Denver. :)

okay, that is all. should be doing some work now!

Selamat mengejar lailatulqadar semua. :) Have fun beribadah.

sebelum saya lupa..

It really hit me after seeing one of the famous lecturers in my place giving a talk about to step out from the comfort zone, specifically in medical school.

I don't know about you, but personally my motivation has this 'half life' of a blink of eye. That's how short it is. I can easily be inspired or motivated AND drastically drained after that just because a patient does not want to be examined or things like that.

The lack of burning desire and enthusiasm in gaining knowledge is really troublesome among the students sekarang. The lecturers can see it through us, really. The moment my lecturer walked into the ward every morning, he/she had this spirit of treating the patients and teaching us the best he/she can. In turn, he/she got lousy answers. Unprepared history takingS. Inadequate knowledge. Latecomers. Silence. A perfect cocktail which is enough to stimulate his/her vocal cord to vibrate more than it should - bebel. Which is very nice to hear actually, coz lama2 dah immune n rasa tak sedap badan kalau tak kena bebel hehe ^_^

But that's not my point. The spotlight is on the panelist in the forum. It was her (my beautiful Prof) transformation that hit me. Such a miracle u know. The first time I saw her, she was not covered by the beautiful hijab she's wearing now. That was a year ago. NOW, she is all about coming back to Allah. Coming back to the root. Coming back to the end of our destination - heaven or hell? She's all about that! I can assure u that not all people with hijab had the guts or at least the habit of 'promoting' Allah when talking, including ME. Some might just put it aside and pretend it to be another part of life. astaghfirullah...

Just look at the sign. Just look at how Allah grant His servants. HIDAYAH is just the BEST thing that one could crave for. I need hidayah to go to the ward. I need hidayah to push me to study. I need hidayah to urge me struggling rather than rolling on my bed thinking that I'll pass the exams and that I'll be a GOOD and SAFE doctor as I graduate. NONSENSE.

The only formula is to usaha + doa + tawakal. No short cut.
I repeat, NO SHORT CUT.

One day I'm gonna be the only doctor in charge. I can't rely on other people to help me motivated doing things that I should do. Not like these days where I can choose to be in the ward or not. Allah is always watching and counting the deeds be it good or bad. So knock the door of your heart. Is it open for the lights to come in, or will it be closed because of the bad things we've done?

Hidayah milik Allah.

Tapi kita perlu berusaha ke arah kebaikan. Bukan mengharapkan kebaikan datang bergolek. Saya harap semangat saya bukan semangat chicken shit. Saya doakan anda semua juga begitu. Cheerio!

Patients seen: yesterday got thyroid eye disease (NOSPECS), glaucoma in a pregnant woman, 2 proliferative diabetic retinopathy, cataract + complicated surgery, retinal detachment - left eye.
Books: currently baca emedicine untuk CWU :)