It really hit me after seeing one of the famous lecturers in my place giving a talk about to step out from the comfort zone, specifically in medical school.
I don't know about you, but personally my motivation has this 'half life' of a blink of eye. That's how short it is. I can easily be inspired or motivated AND drastically drained after that just because a patient does not want to be examined or things like that.
The lack of burning desire and enthusiasm in gaining knowledge is really troublesome among the students sekarang. The lecturers can see it through us, really. The moment my lecturer walked into the ward every morning, he/she had this spirit of treating the patients and teaching us the best he/she can. In turn, he/she got lousy answers. Unprepared history takingS. Inadequate knowledge. Latecomers. Silence. A perfect cocktail which is enough to stimulate his/her vocal cord to vibrate more than it should - bebel. Which is very nice to hear actually, coz lama2 dah immune n rasa tak sedap badan kalau tak kena bebel hehe ^_^
But that's not my point. The spotlight is on the panelist in the forum. It was her (my beautiful Prof) transformation that hit me. Such a miracle u know. The first time I saw her, she was not covered by the beautiful hijab she's wearing now. That was a year ago. NOW, she is all about coming back to Allah. Coming back to the root. Coming back to the end of our destination - heaven or hell? She's all about that! I can assure u that not all people with hijab had the guts or at least the habit of 'promoting' Allah when talking, including ME. Some might just put it aside and pretend it to be another part of life. astaghfirullah...
Just look at the sign. Just look at how Allah grant His servants. HIDAYAH is just the BEST thing that one could crave for. I need hidayah to go to the ward. I need hidayah to push me to study. I need hidayah to urge me struggling rather than rolling on my bed thinking that I'll pass the exams and that I'll be a GOOD and SAFE doctor as I graduate. NONSENSE.
One day I'm gonna be the only doctor in charge. I can't rely on other people to help me motivated doing things that I should do. Not like these days where I can choose to be in the ward or not. Allah is always watching and counting the deeds be it good or bad. So knock the door of your heart. Is it open for the lights to come in, or will it be closed because of the bad things we've done?
Hidayah milik Allah.
Tapi kita perlu berusaha ke arah kebaikan. Bukan mengharapkan kebaikan datang bergolek. Saya harap semangat saya bukan semangat chicken shit. Saya doakan anda semua juga begitu. Cheerio!
Patients seen: yesterday got thyroid eye disease (NOSPECS), glaucoma in a pregnant woman, 2 proliferative diabetic retinopathy, cataract + complicated surgery, retinal detachment - left eye.
Books: currently baca emedicine untuk CWU :)
I don't know about you, but personally my motivation has this 'half life' of a blink of eye. That's how short it is. I can easily be inspired or motivated AND drastically drained after that just because a patient does not want to be examined or things like that.
The lack of burning desire and enthusiasm in gaining knowledge is really troublesome among the students sekarang. The lecturers can see it through us, really. The moment my lecturer walked into the ward every morning, he/she had this spirit of treating the patients and teaching us the best he/she can. In turn, he/she got lousy answers. Unprepared history takingS. Inadequate knowledge. Latecomers. Silence. A perfect cocktail which is enough to stimulate his/her vocal cord to vibrate more than it should - bebel. Which is very nice to hear actually, coz lama2 dah immune n rasa tak sedap badan kalau tak kena bebel hehe ^_^
But that's not my point. The spotlight is on the panelist in the forum. It was her (my beautiful Prof) transformation that hit me. Such a miracle u know. The first time I saw her, she was not covered by the beautiful hijab she's wearing now. That was a year ago. NOW, she is all about coming back to Allah. Coming back to the root. Coming back to the end of our destination - heaven or hell? She's all about that! I can assure u that not all people with hijab had the guts or at least the habit of 'promoting' Allah when talking, including ME. Some might just put it aside and pretend it to be another part of life. astaghfirullah...
Just look at the sign. Just look at how Allah grant His servants. HIDAYAH is just the BEST thing that one could crave for. I need hidayah to go to the ward. I need hidayah to push me to study. I need hidayah to urge me struggling rather than rolling on my bed thinking that I'll pass the exams and that I'll be a GOOD and SAFE doctor as I graduate. NONSENSE.
The only formula is to usaha + doa + tawakal. No short cut.
I repeat, NO SHORT CUT.
I repeat, NO SHORT CUT.
One day I'm gonna be the only doctor in charge. I can't rely on other people to help me motivated doing things that I should do. Not like these days where I can choose to be in the ward or not. Allah is always watching and counting the deeds be it good or bad. So knock the door of your heart. Is it open for the lights to come in, or will it be closed because of the bad things we've done?
Hidayah milik Allah.
Tapi kita perlu berusaha ke arah kebaikan. Bukan mengharapkan kebaikan datang bergolek. Saya harap semangat saya bukan semangat chicken shit. Saya doakan anda semua juga begitu. Cheerio!
Patients seen: yesterday got thyroid eye disease (NOSPECS), glaucoma in a pregnant woman, 2 proliferative diabetic retinopathy, cataract + complicated surgery, retinal detachment - left eye.
Books: currently baca emedicine untuk CWU :)
3 comments:
leya what is no specs?
2 org laki kena pulas telinga kalau malas
salam...love ur writing, miss you~ great blog by the way, congrats for u and ur friends..
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