heh?

• Being an expert in hiding your feelings is not a good thing.
• Crying for no particular reasons- is that even normal?
• Black. Blank.
• What is normal again?
• Its so frustrating when you cant figure yourself out.
• oh so dramatic
• This kind of thing only happens when you are not that close to Allah. Is that true?
• I am only human.
• Ok. bye.

Ugly

Kadang-kadang ujian datang berganti-ganti... Lepas satu dugaan, datang yang kedua. Belum selesai yg kedua, ujian ketiga menyusul..

Sometimes I just can't cope at all.. my heart is broken, exploded, crushed, bruised and no I'm not even exaggerating.

I need a shoulder to cry on, a hug, to be acknowledged, someone who listens without being judgmental, and the one who shall hear me to the point where I started to be rational after all the emotional talks I've made. And most importantly, prayers....

I never intended to hurt others, nor did I plan to do so. But that's what I do best.

Broken Bones

assalamu'alaikum~~ asma` & xati.. it's been awhile since I could post anything here. Ada la several attempts, but ended up doing something else. I've even finished my pediatrics posting pun! :p sorry~ my bad..

the thing is.. lots of things happened and I didn't know how to cramp all those in just a page (alasan).

Can I start all over again? I mean I've lost the momentum obviously so I definitely need some time to reprogram everything in my head.. or my soul? astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah. macam dah berkarat je. huhu.

okie dokie tomorrow is the beginning of my new posting - ORTHOPEDICS weeeee! (urm, honestly I'm not into bones sgt, but still.. ilmu kan..)

right now I'm flipping through Dr Imran's note on Orthopedics.. reviews said it's pretty good so I thought I'd give it a try. Just pray that my brains can accommodate all of the important infos and not drained anywhere else.

semoga sihat2 semuanya ya~ Allahu yusallimukum inshaAllah..

HARRY POTTER!

So, the last movie of harry potter was out a couple of days ago- the first part. And with that, my obsession to harry potter which has been dormant for quite some time has resurfaced. (Truth be told, I am ashamed of myself to still have this obsession.hehe. 23! I'm 23!oh well..)

WHY does this movie has to come out during the time of my exams. Couldn't you just wait until my exams are over! erghh. Nevertheless, I am uber excited to watch it!

I am currently doing a rerun of all harry potter movies from 1 until 6 before watching the 7th. I have just finished with the prisoner of azkaban and I will do the next three after the exams! Hopefully I will be able to restrain myself. :P

I have a lot of harry potter moments with the both of you especially xati. hehe. Fun times that was. I still remember the first time I read harry potter- it was the second book which my father got me when he got back from work in the UK (I was 12 I think). The cover was not very enticing but my father kept saying that it was very popular in the UK. So i gave it a try and was definitely hooked! I'm super glad that I gave it a try. :)

Random bits about me and Harry Potter:

• My favourite book is always the third. Harry potter and the prisoner of Azakaban. Very interesting, mind-blowing plot :)
• My favourite characters are Ron and Hermione. They are just so funny and what a cute couple those two. Love every moments of them in all the books.
• and I think I'm a Gryffindor. :P (perluke ni?x kot.hiks)

OK.on a different note, one of my friend was NOT into Harry Potter (I was a bit taken aback and asked her why) because she thinks that it was very tahyul. hehehe. Well2, I believe I have to agree with her on that. It does kind of take you to a different world- a fantasy world which could distract you from this real world. But this happens with all fictions out there. They bring you to the world of imagination. It may be a distraction but so long as you learn something from what you read/watch, its all good I think. eheh.

Enough about Harry Potter, I need to get back to my studying.

Have a lovely day all of you. :)

ps: I might want to do a book review in this blog, basically just to get me back on my reading again. uhuh. Once every 2months- even this is a bit too ambitious. Nevertheless, I want to give it a try. Oh yeah, if there are any good books you guys know, do suggest it to me. I'll give it a go and do a review after, iA :)

pss: xati, plz update anything about you. I have no idea what's going on with you and this is not good. and leyya, May you be pain free always. take care girls.! much love from me!

Updates

I've deactivated my facebook due to exams- which will be on thursday and friday next week. On Neuro, Psych, Ortho and Rheumatology.

Please make doa everyone. thank you.

Its been AGES since I last talk to both of you. :(

Why is it that you can be so sure of something one moment and suddenly find yourself in doubt the next..? I truly dislike this feeling. (merepek di blog cos da takda facebook.)

I Wanna Be...

PAIN FREE.

Knowledge is Power.

Today I feel like writing about something basic. Very basic. ILMU.

Apa ada pada ilmu? Hmm..

Rasulullah saw bersabda yang bermaksud:

"Sesiapa yang berkehendakkan dunia, maka hendaklah ia berilmu. Sesiapa yang berkehendakkan akhirat, maka hendaklah ia berilmu dan sesiapa yang berkehendakkan kedua-duanya maka hendaklah ia berilmu." (hadis riwayat at-Tirmidzi)

Ini menunjukkan betapa pentingnya ilmu dalam kehidupan kita. Kalau nak apa-apa, mesti ada ilmu. Apa saja yang mampu kita lakukan tanpa ilmu? Sesungguhnya, kita ni sangatlah memerlukan kepada ilmu. Tetapi ilmu yang bagaimanakah? Selalu kalau baca ma'thurat ada kita berdoa kepada Allah supaya kurniakanlah kepada kita ilmu yang bermanfaat. Apakah ilmu yang bermanfaat ini? Sesungguhnya banyak saja ilmu yang bermanfaat di dunia ini, tetapi ilmu yang paling paling paling bermanfaat tidak lain tidak bukan adalah ilmu Islam. Apa itu ilmu Islam? Itulah ilmu Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah.

Sesungguhnya Nabi saw ada bersabda yang bermaksud:

"Sesiapa yang Allah kehendakkan kebaikan kepadanya, Allah akan berikan kepadanya kefahaman agama."

(Bukhari dan Muslim)

Kalau tiada ilmu agama...

• bagaimana mampu kita melakukan ibadah dengan betul?
• bagaimana mampu kita teguhkan aqidah kita?
• bagaimana mahu mebezakan yang haq dan batil?
• bagaimana mahu menjalankan kehidupan dengan betul?
• bagaimana kita hendak menyampaikan kepada yang lain?

Banyak persoalan yang takkan mampu kita jawab tanpa adanya ilmu. Kita sebagai seorang muslim harus merujuk kepada al-Quran dan as-Sunnah dalam setiap perkara yang kita lakukan so kalau kita sendiri x faham keduanya- maka bagaimana? Tanpa ilmu, kita hanya akan bersangka-sangka sahaja yang kita nih buat perkara yang betul which might not be the case.

huuuu. Entry ni sebenarnya adalah refleksi diri- diri ini yang kurang serius dalam mendalami ilmu agama sedangkan itu adalah ilmu yang amat crucial untuk kita ada. Kalau ada usrah atau ada talk mengenai islam, barulah nak tambah ilmu agama. Sebenarnya itu sahaja tidak cukup. Kita kene actively seek for the knowledge. At least everyday kena spend time untuk ilmu agama. Bacalah. Dengarlah ceramah agama. Kena sentiasa tambah ilmu. Cintakan ilmu!

Ilmu islam ini sangatlah luas, rasanya kalau belajar sepanjang kehidupan pun, belum tentu boleh habis belajar. Tapi at least, harus start learning secara serious. Iye. Harus!

Ok. Mari sama2 menambahkan ilmu.

Entry sebelum bermula mencari ilmu. Tapi kali ini ilmu medic pula :)

ilmu yang ini pun penting juga. hehe.